From as early as I can remember, I was brought up as a Catholic. I attended St. Mary Magdalen church. I also attended St. Thomas the Apostle school. In all my time as a Catholic, I believed that after death I would end up in heaven or at worst purgatory because I was encouraged to partake in the various sacraments. However, as a teenager, I began to be attracted to the things of this world, and as a result I became very rebellious in my thoughts, words and attitude. I became involved with the wrong sort of people and consequently made poor decisions particularly in relationships, as I was influenced in a negative way by these relationships. But yet I think that subconsciously, I always felt that something was missing in my life. This downward spiral without God in my life continued for approximately a further ten years.
However, there came a point in my life when I became anxious about life in general, and whether I was really truly heaven bound after death. I was searching for the meaning of life, and for the first time I recall that I began to ask meaningful questions such as "why am I here?" and "what is my purpose?" These questions for a short while led me to consider becoming a Moslem, before I opted to return to the Catholic church, only this time I decided to personally read the Scriptures from Genesis to Revelation. As I read the Scriptures, I could not understand until one evening, while alone in my bedroom, I came to Romans 10:9-10:
"that if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart one believes onto righteousness, and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation."
God in His mercy through the text of Romans 10:9-10 worked in my heart, and I was convicted of my sins. I realized that I was not saved. I became extremely upset with myself that I had rebelled against God for so long, I was very sorrowful for my sins. But I trusted in God's word that salvation was in Christ alone, and the Scripture passage of Romans 10:9-10 has personally been my turning point.
In the early stages of my conversion, I realised that I needed to find a church that taught the word of God more accurately than the Catholic church that I was attending. Prayer became more meaningful to me. I prayed to God to help me find a church that could help me to grow in my faith in Christ. While attending a Pentecostal church, I believe that God in His mercy gave me a desire to daily meditate on His word, and I was particularly guided to go through the whole Bible in one year. This practice has continued with me ever since, and has been a great blessing to my spiritual growth. I consider the word of God as spiritual food and drink for my soul. I love the Bible. I believe as the Scripture says, it is able to make one wise for salvation through faith that is in Christ Jesus (2 Tim. 3:15). I believe that by God's grace alone I am saved, and not by any work I have accomplished, and also that I am saved onto good works (Eph. 2:8-10). I believe that Christ righteousness has been imputed to me by faith (Rom. 4:11), and that I am a new creation in Him (2 Cor. 5:17). Thanks to God, my lifestyle has changed, and continues to change as the Lord through His word continues to bring change from within me. My walk with the Lord has brought challenges that I believe if I were not a Christian I probably would never have gone through. I believe that Cavalries Cross represents Christ's perfect love toward a sinner like me (John 15:13), and His perfect sacrifice to atone for all my sins, that I may enter into an everlasting covenant relationship with Him (Matt. 26:26-28).
One evening, while alone behind closed doors, I clearly heard a voice say, "Ministry." I believe that this was a call of God. While attending a certain Pentecostal church, I had a strong desire to study a Bachelor's degree in Theology to begin to answer the call of God, and in the process to further my desire to serve the undivided three-in-one God, and also to further deepen my knowledge of the various biblical doctrines. After approximately three years of teaching at various Pentecostal ministries, I left the Pentecostal church where I was fellowshipping because I believe that the Holy Spirit was indicating it was the right time to move on, and to seek another church. I thank God that my quest to continue in the knowledge of Him, and particularly to understand the word of God has led me to several churches before arriving at a certain reformed Baptist church, which further increased my desire to serve Him in a more active way, particularly through street evangelism. It is my personal conviction to make time to witness to at least one person a day, in the hope that the kingdom of God may be increased daily to the glory of God (Act. 2:47). I believe that God has called me into the ministry. The call into the ministry is what God has placed within me, and also helped me to realize, and it is my hope to be led by the Holy Spirit so to fulfill my ministry (2 Tim. 4:5).
Thank you dear Lord Jesus for saving me!!! Please join with me in offering continuous praise and thanksgiving to God for what He has done.